Monday, April 30, 2012

Ever had one of those days?

You have a freer day than usual, so you make a massive to-do list of all the things you've been meaning to do for a long time. You plan out your day accordingly, and off you go.

You're so productive that you get almost everything done on your list. Or maybe you even get every single thing done that you wanted to.

But you still feel like you missed something.

You should be happier, more satisfied with yourself. Instead, you're sighing, feeling slightly depressed as you crawl under your covers and wondering what tomorrow will hold.

This described a day last week for me. I realized that, even though I had gotten so much done (I even went to the gym- I never go to the gym during the school year), I had enjoyed very little of my day. I felt that I had failed to see the day as the precious gift it was.

"Enjoy each day" and "seize the day" are popular phrases. But how do we actually do them, every day? Much easier said than done, if you ask me.

On that day I realized that I had not kept my focus. For me, that focus is God. Really, He is the only object in my life that is truly constant, that never changes, that is always, always there.

hiking in Aspen last summer
I read in my devotional once that like a spinning ballerina, we must keep returning our gaze to a single point- God. Days that lack focus can seem empty, chaotic, purposeless...

Honestly, even this proposition- to continually keep my focus on Him- seems overwhelming. There are just so many other things screaming for my attention. Things that promise wealth, eternal happiness, security...

The good thing is that there is grace. What we are called to we are also equipped for. And when we fail, He doesn't condemn us or look down on us. Thank goodness He knows what it's like to be us, to be human.

So if you ever have one of those days, you are not alone! I continually struggle with keeping my focus on God and not on earthly things that ultimately disappoint and don't satisfy. But at the end of days like these, I'm so thankful to remember that no matter what, there is grace for those who seek it. Each day was  a gift. And the next day will be just as much of a gift.

1 comment:

  1. I realize that this is a bit of an older post, but I just came across your blog through my friend Rachel's blog at "Maid for More." I am following your blog now, and it's nice to meet you, Yvonne! :) I can definitely say that I have felt the way you did in this post. Thank our Lord Jesus for His great grace!
    Love in Him,